Wednesday, January 30, 2008

Already Forgiven.....

Awhile ago I did a post on why do we as Christians feel the need to ask God to forgive us of our sins.
I still am so amazed that God has removed my sin, all of it, and He doesn't even see it! Yahoo! So because it is a finished work there is no need to feel guilty and plead for forgiveness, or to have to wait to be forgiven or to fear God won't forgive you! It's done! 
Anyway, I do believe that confessing our sin for our own benefit to God is a good idea, so we can again thank Him that He already had forgiven us and show our gratitude. 
Today Steve McVey addressed this issue in his 101 lies series check it out here;

Already Forgiven.....

Awhile ago I did a post on why do we as Christians feel the need to ask God to forgive us of our sins.
I still am so amazed that God has removed my sin, all of it, and He doesn't even see it! Yahoo! So because it is a finished work there is no need to feel guilty and plead for forgiveness, or to have to wait to be forgiven or to fear God won't forgive you! It's done! 
Anyway, I do believe that confessing our sin for our own benefit to God is a good idea, so we can again thank Him that He already had forgiven us and show our gratitude. 
Today Steve McVey addressed this issue in his 101 lies series check it out here;

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Making God's Passion Our Passion....

Alas, I am getting to the message from Sunday...and I must confess, this was difficult to transcribe due to the amount of passion Don had while preaching. Too hard to keep up with a man in the flow of the Spirit! Anyway, I want to get a bit of the message out in public, but this was one of those messages that everything built on each thing he said from the beginning and I just couldn't bring myself to reduce the message to just notes and to transcribe it would have been a bit much. So, I am attempting to see if I can't upload the message somehow and make it available in MP3 format. 
I am willing to mail a copy of it to anyone who would like a copy and I will have my email available on my blog in short order. Please feel free to email me and I will get you a copy of this message. (lydiajgrewell@yahoo.com)
In the meantime here is a tid bit of the introduction;
"What does it mean to be the body of Christ? What does it mean to be a church, a local expression of God's mighty work across the world?
At least in part, it means weeping with those who weep, rejoicing with those who rejoice learning and growing together, we can't feel exactly each other's pain and sometimes we can't even relate - but, we can LOVE.
We must step back and recover God's passion and vision for his church. What is it He is looking for? What is it that He desires? How, first and foremost, does He even view us as His people?
We need to overcome the Crisis of Modern Disillusionment(both the world's and our own) & Recover God's Perspective and Passion. 
The church has not always been a delight, we've all had challenges....that which God desires to see is not always our experience. The church has become so many things, - it has become a grand experiment, try everything and anything, grow it big enough to make a mark or leave an impression, it has become a business enterprise. Our world today is filled more with churches who seem concerned with displaying something humanly grand than encountering God, and displaying the grandness of God.
(We will be surveying the book of Ephesians for vision.)  

Making God's Passion Our Passion....

Alas, I am getting to the message from Sunday...and I must confess, this was difficult to transcribe due to the amount of passion Don had while preaching. Too hard to keep up with a man in the flow of the Spirit! Anyway, I want to get a bit of the message out in public, but this was one of those messages that everything built on each thing he said from the beginning and I just couldn't bring myself to reduce the message to just notes and to transcribe it would have been a bit much. So, I am attempting to see if I can't upload the message somehow and make it available in MP3 format. 
I am willing to mail a copy of it to anyone who would like a copy and I will have my email available on my blog in short order. Please feel free to email me and I will get you a copy of this message. (lydiajgrewell@yahoo.com)
In the meantime here is a tid bit of the introduction;
"What does it mean to be the body of Christ? What does it mean to be a church, a local expression of God's mighty work across the world?
At least in part, it means weeping with those who weep, rejoicing with those who rejoice learning and growing together, we can't feel exactly each other's pain and sometimes we can't even relate - but, we can LOVE.
We must step back and recover God's passion and vision for his church. What is it He is looking for? What is it that He desires? How, first and foremost, does He even view us as His people?
We need to overcome the Crisis of Modern Disillusionment(both the world's and our own) & Recover God's Perspective and Passion. 
The church has not always been a delight, we've all had challenges....that which God desires to see is not always our experience. The church has become so many things, - it has become a grand experiment, try everything and anything, grow it big enough to make a mark or leave an impression, it has become a business enterprise. Our world today is filled more with churches who seem concerned with displaying something humanly grand than encountering God, and displaying the grandness of God.
(We will be surveying the book of Ephesians for vision.)  

Monday, January 28, 2008

Too good to keep to myself

Blogging has become to me, far more than I ever thought or dreamed.....I know I know, I said I was bored with it not that long ago, but I have been re-inspired.....there are so many others in the blog world that have such a wealth of wisdom, truth, passion and experience to share and I am so grateful to be able to glean from them as well as form friendships over the world wide web. The message of grace is too good to be silent about,  and too good not to share and too good not to be passionate about and inspired by....so I must share some of the great posts I have been enjoying lately.
Yesterday I read a post on one of Dan Bowen's many blogs, that really met me where I am at currently. I have been wrestling with how I want more of God, I want to experience more of the many wonderful things God has for us, healing  and just His manifest presence among other things. I am not satisfied to just go to church, worship with others and be taught, I want it ALL! Anyway, he wrote a post entitled, Disappointed? Today an angel might come and stir the pool. You absolutely must read it! 
Also I have been enjoying Dan's blog "Life on Wings." on which a pastor friend of his, Peter Day just wrote an excellent post, Overturning the tables of legalism. I highly recommend reading this along with the wealth of comments that came in response to it! 
I have also been enjoying Steve McVey's blog, where he is currently posting in video format 101 lies taught in church every Sunday. Boy, have those been cool to watch and hear! I think what he is doing with this is revolutionary and so helpful as we have been taught so much legalism and haven't even realized it!
And one more for now,  Grace in Flood's blog, Gregg Booyens, has a fabulous blog with his journey into grace and has a few friends joining with him, one that is a pastor in South Africa, that has recently had a huge transformation in his church due to the Grace message, and he posts sermon notes regularly that are too good to miss out on! One of my favorites of late, is by Gregg's friend Roy, Warts n' All. 
Also check out Joel's blog, Matt's blog, Bino's blog, and of course the one who inspired me to start a blog in the first place, Julie's blog. And might I add Julie just did a most outstanding job on her latest post, Should we be cross centered?

Too good to keep to myself

Blogging has become to me, far more than I ever thought or dreamed.....I know I know, I said I was bored with it not that long ago, but I have been re-inspired.....there are so many others in the blog world that have such a wealth of wisdom, truth, passion and experience to share and I am so grateful to be able to glean from them as well as form friendships over the world wide web. The message of grace is too good to be silent about,  and too good not to share and too good not to be passionate about and inspired by....so I must share some of the great posts I have been enjoying lately.
Yesterday I read a post on one of Dan Bowen's many blogs, that really met me where I am at currently. I have been wrestling with how I want more of God, I want to experience more of the many wonderful things God has for us, healing  and just His manifest presence among other things. I am not satisfied to just go to church, worship with others and be taught, I want it ALL! Anyway, he wrote a post entitled, Disappointed? Today an angel might come and stir the pool. You absolutely must read it! 
Also I have been enjoying Dan's blog "Life on Wings." on which a pastor friend of his, Peter Day just wrote an excellent post, Overturning the tables of legalism. I highly recommend reading this along with the wealth of comments that came in response to it! 
I have also been enjoying Steve McVey's blog, where he is currently posting in video format 101 lies taught in church every Sunday. Boy, have those been cool to watch and hear! I think what he is doing with this is revolutionary and so helpful as we have been taught so much legalism and haven't even realized it!
And one more for now,  Grace in Flood's blog, Gregg Booyens, has a fabulous blog with his journey into grace and has a few friends joining with him, one that is a pastor in South Africa, that has recently had a huge transformation in his church due to the Grace message, and he posts sermon notes regularly that are too good to miss out on! One of my favorites of late, is by Gregg's friend Roy, Warts n' All. 
Also check out Joel's blog, Matt's blog, Bino's blog, and of course the one who inspired me to start a blog in the first place, Julie's blog. And might I add Julie just did a most outstanding job on her latest post, Should we be cross centered?

Sunday, January 27, 2008

If you resist sin, will you become more Godly??????

If you resist sin, will you become more Godly??????

Sharing the wealth...(so to speak)

My family has been attending a new church called Grace Community Church, that began this past fall. To me one of the huge benefits of this new church is the preaching of the word. Every week I look forward to what I will be taught. So I decided that I would transcribe a portion of the message each week (since it is hard to take notes often with the baby....) and put it up on my blog. The messages are not yet available online to download so I felt this would be a way to get this great teaching out to anyone else who may benefit and I would benefit further from a more indepth listening.......so stay tuned for that!!!!
This past week I posted a bit of the message, The Benefit of building on the Sovereign, saving Grace of our triune God,  done by Don Shorey last Sunday. Just FYI.....

Sharing the wealth...(so to speak)

My family has been attending a new church called Grace Community Church, that began this past fall. To me one of the huge benefits of this new church is the preaching of the word. Every week I look forward to what I will be taught. So I decided that I would transcribe a portion of the message each week (since it is hard to take notes often with the baby....) and put it up on my blog. The messages are not yet available online to download so I felt this would be a way to get this great teaching out to anyone else who may benefit and I would benefit further from a more indepth listening.......so stay tuned for that!!!!
This past week I posted a bit of the message, The Benefit of building on the Sovereign, saving Grace of our triune God,  done by Don Shorey last Sunday. Just FYI.....

Friday, January 25, 2008

My thoughts on the marriage relationship.....

For years the church I attended seemed to value the marriage relationship very highly....which initially seemed great!!! Who doesn't want to have a greater marriage in all areas.....?
Over time, we heard alot of the same "high standards" for our marriages, respect, submission, communication, parenting, date nights, intimacy, encouraging one another...and a whole other host of specifics...no subject was exhausted enough......the more we heard about how to have a godly marriage the higher the bar got and the more we fell short and failed and held each other responsible for not getting their part right.....
It seems to me the marriage relationship was elevated above our individual relationship with the Lord....we were taught about that too, but in a "need to" spend time with God way....It's almost like a formula for success in marriage was being painted over and over.....so I focused on my marriage more than God.....I felt like a failure because my marriage looked nothing like the results the formula were supposed to create......I kept crying out to God to restore my marriage and allow it to be fruitful and a blessing....but the more books I read about "how to walk out my specific role" in marriage, the more messages, meetings and accountability sessions with other women the more I felt desperate and like I would NEVER get it right!!! 
I noticed that at every wedding I went to within the church the same scriptures were read, almost everyone wrote their own vows and they all sounded the same as the last wedding I had been at. Why is that? Finally this summer I went to a wedding not in my same church but the same family of churches and lo and behold, same scriptures, same type of message, same type of vows.....! I was so frustrated and honestly, angry. Why do we turn our marriages into duty into seperate roles and our part.....what good is it doing? Now I don't say this to be unkind or uncharitable to anyone who chose to have this way of a wedding ceremony, I myself had one just like it! It was just the way it was done! But I really thought, "Lord why is this bothering me so much...I honestly don't want to rebel against You, but this can't be all there is...." I want to be loved for ME, not how well I perform in my role as a wife!!
I began to contemplate how much we were taught that the marriage relationship is a meant to be a picture of Christ and the church, and that unbelievers would see a Gospel message through our marriages....and today it dawned on me....they emphasize the marriage so much because they so desperately want to BE that picture......of Christ and His church!!! The problem is they have it all backwards....trying to have an excellent marriage and fulfill the Ephesians 5 passage by walking out each aspect and striving to have their marriages "look" this way.....but you see what I have come to realize is that, that completely defeats the whole point I believe God would have us understand.......now that I have come to an understanding of Grace, I want to first and foremost know my God, I have fallen in love with Him because of grace and I want my life to portray the Ephesians picture, but it's not me doing my role well, it's me resting in God, allowing His very life to flow through me, as me...the more I marvel at His Awesome gifts, His Grace, His abounding love for me, the more I have a heart of love, compassion, acceptance for others....I no longer focus on a right way of "doing" marriage....I don't have to, it just happens!!!! Woohoo!!! We are growing rapidly in ways I only dreamed of all these years, I can't believe it!! I love God, I love my husband, truly truly. Does this mean we have it all figured out? Does this mean we look a certain way? Does this mean we don't still argue or fight? Or mess up? NO! But our hearts are tender to each other, we have a ton more respect for who each other is, because we know who we are in Christ - we know about God's wonderful thoughts about us!!! We are still a mess in alot of ways, but we don't hold things over each other or against each other.....as we long for more intimacy with our God, and experience it......it just naturally overflows into our marriage relationship!!!! This is a HUGE miracle! A bondage lifted and freedom granted!! Praise be to God - He is so faithful, He is so GOOD to us, he NEVER leaves us or forsakes us!!! He longs to give us wonderful gifts, our marriage being one he wants to bless us with!!! (no marriage is not only for our santicfication! After all he gave Adam and Eve each other before there was any sin in the world! ) I believe our marriages are meant to be grace and blessing and joy to us, and yes we can learn and grow too!!! 
So is marriage hard work? I suppose that would depend on how you view God and how He thinks of you......marriage can be hard for sure, but should it feel like hard work...???
It's all about God, He wants to be known for His Grace and Glory, He wants to lavish us with His love, just because He does, He is Love, so He LOVES to love us....experiencing this in a real way, knowing this, not just in my head but in my heart has made me to revel in HIM!!! Our marriage can look like that picture of Christ and His bride, because He is the most Amazing Bridegroom -and naturally we will respond with our hearts full of passion for HIM!!!! 


My thoughts on the marriage relationship.....

For years the church I attended seemed to value the marriage relationship very highly....which initially seemed great!!! Who doesn't want to have a greater marriage in all areas.....?
Over time, we heard alot of the same "high standards" for our marriages, respect, submission, communication, parenting, date nights, intimacy, encouraging one another...and a whole other host of specifics...no subject was exhausted enough......the more we heard about how to have a godly marriage the higher the bar got and the more we fell short and failed and held each other responsible for not getting their part right.....
It seems to me the marriage relationship was elevated above our individual relationship with the Lord....we were taught about that too, but in a "need to" spend time with God way....It's almost like a formula for success in marriage was being painted over and over.....so I focused on my marriage more than God.....I felt like a failure because my marriage looked nothing like the results the formula were supposed to create......I kept crying out to God to restore my marriage and allow it to be fruitful and a blessing....but the more books I read about "how to walk out my specific role" in marriage, the more messages, meetings and accountability sessions with other women the more I felt desperate and like I would NEVER get it right!!! 
I noticed that at every wedding I went to within the church the same scriptures were read, almost everyone wrote their own vows and they all sounded the same as the last wedding I had been at. Why is that? Finally this summer I went to a wedding not in my same church but the same family of churches and lo and behold, same scriptures, same type of message, same type of vows.....! I was so frustrated and honestly, angry. Why do we turn our marriages into duty into seperate roles and our part.....what good is it doing? Now I don't say this to be unkind or uncharitable to anyone who chose to have this way of a wedding ceremony, I myself had one just like it! It was just the way it was done! But I really thought, "Lord why is this bothering me so much...I honestly don't want to rebel against You, but this can't be all there is...." I want to be loved for ME, not how well I perform in my role as a wife!!
I began to contemplate how much we were taught that the marriage relationship is a meant to be a picture of Christ and the church, and that unbelievers would see a Gospel message through our marriages....and today it dawned on me....they emphasize the marriage so much because they so desperately want to BE that picture......of Christ and His church!!! The problem is they have it all backwards....trying to have an excellent marriage and fulfill the Ephesians 5 passage by walking out each aspect and striving to have their marriages "look" this way.....but you see what I have come to realize is that, that completely defeats the whole point I believe God would have us understand.......now that I have come to an understanding of Grace, I want to first and foremost know my God, I have fallen in love with Him because of grace and I want my life to portray the Ephesians picture, but it's not me doing my role well, it's me resting in God, allowing His very life to flow through me, as me...the more I marvel at His Awesome gifts, His Grace, His abounding love for me, the more I have a heart of love, compassion, acceptance for others....I no longer focus on a right way of "doing" marriage....I don't have to, it just happens!!!! Woohoo!!! We are growing rapidly in ways I only dreamed of all these years, I can't believe it!! I love God, I love my husband, truly truly. Does this mean we have it all figured out? Does this mean we look a certain way? Does this mean we don't still argue or fight? Or mess up? NO! But our hearts are tender to each other, we have a ton more respect for who each other is, because we know who we are in Christ - we know about God's wonderful thoughts about us!!! We are still a mess in alot of ways, but we don't hold things over each other or against each other.....as we long for more intimacy with our God, and experience it......it just naturally overflows into our marriage relationship!!!! This is a HUGE miracle! A bondage lifted and freedom granted!! Praise be to God - He is so faithful, He is so GOOD to us, he NEVER leaves us or forsakes us!!! He longs to give us wonderful gifts, our marriage being one he wants to bless us with!!! (no marriage is not only for our santicfication! After all he gave Adam and Eve each other before there was any sin in the world! ) I believe our marriages are meant to be grace and blessing and joy to us, and yes we can learn and grow too!!! 
So is marriage hard work? I suppose that would depend on how you view God and how He thinks of you......marriage can be hard for sure, but should it feel like hard work...???
It's all about God, He wants to be known for His Grace and Glory, He wants to lavish us with His love, just because He does, He is Love, so He LOVES to love us....experiencing this in a real way, knowing this, not just in my head but in my heart has made me to revel in HIM!!! Our marriage can look like that picture of Christ and His bride, because He is the most Amazing Bridegroom -and naturally we will respond with our hearts full of passion for HIM!!!! 


Wednesday, January 23, 2008

A prayer request....!

A dear friend of mine just called me today to let me know she is having a miscarriage, please pray for her and her family, they have been through so much already this past year! Pray that she will feel God's loving embrace around her, his compassion for her and for healing.....!
I know God works all things for his good purpose, and heals the broken hearted and binds their wounds, I know God is the God of all comfort, His name even means compassionate, I imagine Jesus shedding tears with her, but when we are in the midst of difficulties such as this, it can be but a shadow and a dream we hope for one day -the pain is just so real and so present now, it's hard to hold out for peace and have faith in these truths,  and it's hard to be comforted......please lift her up as the Lord leads.....


A prayer request....!

A dear friend of mine just called me today to let me know she is having a miscarriage, please pray for her and her family, they have been through so much already this past year! Pray that she will feel God's loving embrace around her, his compassion for her and for healing.....!
I know God works all things for his good purpose, and heals the broken hearted and binds their wounds, I know God is the God of all comfort, His name even means compassionate, I imagine Jesus shedding tears with her, but when we are in the midst of difficulties such as this, it can be but a shadow and a dream we hope for one day -the pain is just so real and so present now, it's hard to hold out for peace and have faith in these truths,  and it's hard to be comforted......please lift her up as the Lord leads.....


Monday, January 21, 2008

The Benefit of building on the Sovereign, Saving Grace of our Triune God...

So, I decided to post a bit of the message I heard yesterday, preached by Don Shorey. He introduced a series and a general plan for preaching that would begin with an in-depth study of 1 Peter. Anyway, there was a certain section of the message that, to me, was very encouraging. So, I listened to it again so that I could transcribe a portion of it, as the messages are not yet available online. 

"I believe great benefit will arise from the in-depth study of 1 Peter, because it builds from the beginning on the Sovereign and saving grace of our Triune God. 
If you try and go through a letter like this and stop at the what to do parts and start trying to learn the what to do parts you would very quickly, maybe see your life change in some way just by behaviour change, but if you do that without stopping to step back and look at the way a letter like this is written you will miss the point. You will miss the point of the Gospel and you will miss what will really transform your life. 
From the beginning of this letter the truth Peter wants to bring into these people's lives - Yes he does want to see their lives transformed, yes he does want to see them grow into the image of Christ, yes he does want to see them be faithful to God even in difficult circumstances, but this is not a manual for behaviour change. It is a display of the unfolding effect of the Gospel in Your lives and so from the very beginning of the letter, it is rooted not just in the gospel in general, but in God's nature to save. In His Sovereign saving activity! 
Peter even chooses in these very first verses to make clear that the whole of God, that triune nature, that we don't comprehend or grasp, but we believe and see the richness of - the whole of God is occupied in our salvation, through the Gospel, Peter realizes that's what's going to redefine these people's, that's what's going to transform them in their difficult circumstances, and so verse 2, right in his greeting, before he's even getting to the substance, so to speak, of the letter, he says of them, You are elect according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, in the sanctification of the Spirit, for obedience and sprinkling of the blood of Jesus Christ. 

For the moment I want us to see the personalness of God's pursuit of us...Peter reminds these people that the WHOLE of God is leaning towards them, he reminds them that God the Father, God the Spirit and God the Son have set their heart towards them. Peter in essence says, You are sought by the Father, He pursued you, He desired you before you were even born.

People get all caught up between the doctrinal challenges of Calvinism and Armenianism, you know the essence of  Reformed theology that we would affirm - the essence is simply this - it's all about God and his desire to pursue us inexplicably by His grace. 
In a sense that's all it is - it's learning that not only is God gracious but loves His grace and wants to be known for His grace more than He wants to be known for anything else. 
And so He has set out from before time, perfectly designed, so He could pour out His Grace upon us- 

(Don quotes a bit of an old hymn)
I sought the Lord,  and afterward I knew He moved my soul, to seek Him seeking me, it was not I that found O Saviour true, no I was found of thee.....

-that reminder of God though by the mercy of God, He called us to run after Him, it was because he had been running after us. That's important, that's not just cold doctrine, that's not just historic theology - it defines our relationship with God.

We are sought by the Father, but we are also brought by the Holy Spirit, don't get confused by that word sanctification - we use it to talk about Christian change and transformation, that's not generally the New Testament use of the term. The NT use of the term sanctify, or to set apart speaks more to that initial work of Spirit regeneration. He sanctified us, he set us apart at that time. That's why Hebrews can say we are fully sanctified already - that doesn't fit the way we usually talk about progressive sanctification, but it is a complete work of setting apart, of making us holy as unto the Lord. It is that active, effective call by the Spirit, that calls us all, that sets us all apart. We will ALWAYS be apart, we will ALWAYS be that daughter or that son of God- that we have been appointed by His mercy to be. And so this statement, though it may not seem like it at first glance is a statement about the Father who wanted us, and the Spirit who brought us to Him, the Spirit who made it happen, who regenerated, who brought life ANEW in us, who called us when we were dead in our trespasses and sins. 

Peter summarizes the Gospel so beautifully by drawing the attention toward the real players - The Father, The Spirit and the Son of God Himself - so that we might feel the full weight of His affection & His Grace and His initiative towards us. He sets that out at the beginning of this letter. He sets it out while he's still saying "Hi". He hasn't even gotten to the main text yet, He's already sharing how God has pursued us.
This letter is saturated with the Gospel of God's great Grace. It is from beginning to end occupied, yes with seeing our lives changed and transformed by the richness of God's grace being known and loved and applied in our lives.

We will OFTEN speak more of that!! "

The Benefit of building on the Sovereign, Saving Grace of our Triune God...

So, I decided to post a bit of the message I heard yesterday, preached by Don Shorey. He introduced a series and a general plan for preaching that would begin with an in-depth study of 1 Peter. Anyway, there was a certain section of the message that, to me, was very encouraging. So, I listened to it again so that I could transcribe a portion of it, as the messages are not yet available online. 

"I believe great benefit will arise from the in-depth study of 1 Peter, because it builds from the beginning on the Sovereign and saving grace of our Triune God. 
If you try and go through a letter like this and stop at the what to do parts and start trying to learn the what to do parts you would very quickly, maybe see your life change in some way just by behaviour change, but if you do that without stopping to step back and look at the way a letter like this is written you will miss the point. You will miss the point of the Gospel and you will miss what will really transform your life. 
From the beginning of this letter the truth Peter wants to bring into these people's lives - Yes he does want to see their lives transformed, yes he does want to see them grow into the image of Christ, yes he does want to see them be faithful to God even in difficult circumstances, but this is not a manual for behaviour change. It is a display of the unfolding effect of the Gospel in Your lives and so from the very beginning of the letter, it is rooted not just in the gospel in general, but in God's nature to save. In His Sovereign saving activity! 
Peter even chooses in these very first verses to make clear that the whole of God, that triune nature, that we don't comprehend or grasp, but we believe and see the richness of - the whole of God is occupied in our salvation, through the Gospel, Peter realizes that's what's going to redefine these people's, that's what's going to transform them in their difficult circumstances, and so verse 2, right in his greeting, before he's even getting to the substance, so to speak, of the letter, he says of them, You are elect according to the foreknowledge of God the Father, in the sanctification of the Spirit, for obedience and sprinkling of the blood of Jesus Christ. 

For the moment I want us to see the personalness of God's pursuit of us...Peter reminds these people that the WHOLE of God is leaning towards them, he reminds them that God the Father, God the Spirit and God the Son have set their heart towards them. Peter in essence says, You are sought by the Father, He pursued you, He desired you before you were even born.

People get all caught up between the doctrinal challenges of Calvinism and Armenianism, you know the essence of  Reformed theology that we would affirm - the essence is simply this - it's all about God and his desire to pursue us inexplicably by His grace. 
In a sense that's all it is - it's learning that not only is God gracious but loves His grace and wants to be known for His grace more than He wants to be known for anything else. 
And so He has set out from before time, perfectly designed, so He could pour out His Grace upon us- 

(Don quotes a bit of an old hymn)
I sought the Lord,  and afterward I knew He moved my soul, to seek Him seeking me, it was not I that found O Saviour true, no I was found of thee.....

-that reminder of God though by the mercy of God, He called us to run after Him, it was because he had been running after us. That's important, that's not just cold doctrine, that's not just historic theology - it defines our relationship with God.

We are sought by the Father, but we are also brought by the Holy Spirit, don't get confused by that word sanctification - we use it to talk about Christian change and transformation, that's not generally the New Testament use of the term. The NT use of the term sanctify, or to set apart speaks more to that initial work of Spirit regeneration. He sanctified us, he set us apart at that time. That's why Hebrews can say we are fully sanctified already - that doesn't fit the way we usually talk about progressive sanctification, but it is a complete work of setting apart, of making us holy as unto the Lord. It is that active, effective call by the Spirit, that calls us all, that sets us all apart. We will ALWAYS be apart, we will ALWAYS be that daughter or that son of God- that we have been appointed by His mercy to be. And so this statement, though it may not seem like it at first glance is a statement about the Father who wanted us, and the Spirit who brought us to Him, the Spirit who made it happen, who regenerated, who brought life ANEW in us, who called us when we were dead in our trespasses and sins. 

Peter summarizes the Gospel so beautifully by drawing the attention toward the real players - The Father, The Spirit and the Son of God Himself - so that we might feel the full weight of His affection & His Grace and His initiative towards us. He sets that out at the beginning of this letter. He sets it out while he's still saying "Hi". He hasn't even gotten to the main text yet, He's already sharing how God has pursued us.
This letter is saturated with the Gospel of God's great Grace. It is from beginning to end occupied, yes with seeing our lives changed and transformed by the richness of God's grace being known and loved and applied in our lives.

We will OFTEN speak more of that!! "

Sunday, January 20, 2008

Is Grace a very important Doctrine???

Is Grace a very important Doctrine???

Meaningful Worship....

For so many years I have  enjoyed worshipping the Lord amidst the sea of folks gathered on a given Sunday. But today something dawned on me. All these years I have worshipped not fully understanding all the words I was singing, and not  fully understanding who God is and my position before him. At times I would worship just to lift MY spirits, and there were times when I  meant what I sang from my heart and sometimes had a hard time worshipping due to guilt or condemnation making  me feel I was not worthy to lift my voice to the Almighty God.  But today, today was different. For some weeks now I have enjoyed worshipping the Lord because I am falling madly in love with Him, ultimately because he sought me and 
showed me how awesome He is. Today as I worshipped I really lingered over the words 
that were being sung, and that's when I started smirking and grinning all over...
One of the songs we sang was a very familiar song I have sung it in church for years, but to be 
honest, I sang it and only grasped a small part of it. Today, I sang it and was so overwhelmed with joy because I realized the words I was singing were solidified in my heart. They are not just words, they ring true in my spirit! I thought how cool Lord, how cool is this moment that I can worship you even more fully and truly be lost in wonder and amazement as my heart rejoices over these truths that I am coming to greater and greater awareness of....here are the words to one verse and the chorus;
"Your Goodness found us in the darkness rescued us and freed us cleansed us from within, You saved us freely You forgave us, 
counted us as righteous heirs with your own Son, isn't He good isn't he kind, hasn't he blessed us time after time, isn't He good all of our days, with endless mercy and ceaseless praise, O let us sing He is good." 
What clicked for me today was the line, "counted us as righteous", actually it's not past tense, it's current day!!! God sees me as righteous ALL OF THE TIME!!! How totally awesome is that!!!
Another song was "A Debtor to Mercy"; 
A debtor to mercy alone Of covenant mercy I sing I come with your righteousness on My humble offering to bring The judgements of Your holy law  With me can have NOTHING to do  My Saviour's obedience and blood HIDE ALL my transgressions from view. (Just verse one) 
This one line struck me, my Saviour's obedience and blood hide all my trangressions from view. Wow! I was reading somewhere in an article, or maybe it was in a message I heard..well anyway, that God doesn't even see my sin. What?!?! 
That's right, my sin has been dealt with, all of it, it's not in His sight anymore, as far as the east is from the west, He sees me as RIGHTEOUS ONLY!!  This is amazing to me that for so many years I walked around feeling guilty and condemned and so focused on my poor performance when all the while God had accepted the perfect performance of Jesus, the spotless Lamb, and His sacrifice was satisfactory to God - my performance has nothing to do with what God did for me, my performance will never change the fact that I am declared Righteous because of Jesus. This is revolutionary to me because I am so much more amazed at what glorious things He has done on my behalf.....all these years all these worship songs with such deeper meaning than my heart ever grasped!! 

Meaningful Worship....

For so many years I have  enjoyed worshipping the Lord amidst the sea of folks gathered on a given Sunday. But today something dawned on me. All these years I have worshipped not fully understanding all the words I was singing, and not  fully understanding who God is and my position before him. At times I would worship just to lift MY spirits, and there were times when I  meant what I sang from my heart and sometimes had a hard time worshipping due to guilt or condemnation making  me feel I was not worthy to lift my voice to the Almighty God.  But today, today was different. For some weeks now I have enjoyed worshipping the Lord because I am falling madly in love with Him, ultimately because he sought me and 
showed me how awesome He is. Today as I worshipped I really lingered over the words 
that were being sung, and that's when I started smirking and grinning all over...
One of the songs we sang was a very familiar song I have sung it in church for years, but to be 
honest, I sang it and only grasped a small part of it. Today, I sang it and was so overwhelmed with joy because I realized the words I was singing were solidified in my heart. They are not just words, they ring true in my spirit! I thought how cool Lord, how cool is this moment that I can worship you even more fully and truly be lost in wonder and amazement as my heart rejoices over these truths that I am coming to greater and greater awareness of....here are the words to one verse and the chorus;
"Your Goodness found us in the darkness rescued us and freed us cleansed us from within, You saved us freely You forgave us, 
counted us as righteous heirs with your own Son, isn't He good isn't he kind, hasn't he blessed us time after time, isn't He good all of our days, with endless mercy and ceaseless praise, O let us sing He is good." 
What clicked for me today was the line, "counted us as righteous", actually it's not past tense, it's current day!!! God sees me as righteous ALL OF THE TIME!!! How totally awesome is that!!!
Another song was "A Debtor to Mercy"; 
A debtor to mercy alone Of covenant mercy I sing I come with your righteousness on My humble offering to bring The judgements of Your holy law  With me can have NOTHING to do  My Saviour's obedience and blood HIDE ALL my transgressions from view. (Just verse one) 
This one line struck me, my Saviour's obedience and blood hide all my trangressions from view. Wow! I was reading somewhere in an article, or maybe it was in a message I heard..well anyway, that God doesn't even see my sin. What?!?! 
That's right, my sin has been dealt with, all of it, it's not in His sight anymore, as far as the east is from the west, He sees me as RIGHTEOUS ONLY!!  This is amazing to me that for so many years I walked around feeling guilty and condemned and so focused on my poor performance when all the while God had accepted the perfect performance of Jesus, the spotless Lamb, and His sacrifice was satisfactory to God - my performance has nothing to do with what God did for me, my performance will never change the fact that I am declared Righteous because of Jesus. This is revolutionary to me because I am so much more amazed at what glorious things He has done on my behalf.....all these years all these worship songs with such deeper meaning than my heart ever grasped!! 

Thursday, January 17, 2008

Got the blues....

Boy I sure can relate to the Psalmist, good ole' David these days....I have always been an intensely internal person, a thinker and full of emotions, I am beginning to realize I am quite passionate...but for years my passion was kinda on the down low....and now that I am free to be me, free to have my emotions back (hard to explain what I mean here, but was always given a possible sin reason for my emotions over the years, kinda makes you not want to emote so much if you are just going to be charged of sinning...anyway...) ...I really relate to David, he had an intense passion for the Lord, he's either hot or cold, praising the Lord exuberantly with all of his heart, soul, mind and strength or crying out to God because he was in the midst of a trial or longing for God to speak to him, or longing for more of His presence...but always giving thanks to the Lord, always confident in God's character and power!! 

Got the blues....

Boy I sure can relate to the Psalmist, good ole' David these days....I have always been an intensely internal person, a thinker and full of emotions, I am beginning to realize I am quite passionate...but for years my passion was kinda on the down low....and now that I am free to be me, free to have my emotions back (hard to explain what I mean here, but was always given a possible sin reason for my emotions over the years, kinda makes you not want to emote so much if you are just going to be charged of sinning...anyway...) ...I really relate to David, he had an intense passion for the Lord, he's either hot or cold, praising the Lord exuberantly with all of his heart, soul, mind and strength or crying out to God because he was in the midst of a trial or longing for God to speak to him, or longing for more of His presence...but always giving thanks to the Lord, always confident in God's character and power!! 

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Important Message!

God said that before He saved us we were powerless, ungodly, sinners and enemies of God. Ouch!!! Rom 5:6-10 You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God's wrath through him! For if, when we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life!

Now we are a new creation, born again, the old has gone and the new has come.

2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

we are chosen by God, holy and dearly loved. Colossians 3:12 Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved

Our position in Christ is as firm as Gods word says it is Hebrews11:14 Perfect forever. 

It gets better too. He loves us with the SAME love He loves His beloved Son Jesus with. John 17:21-23 (Jesus prayer for all believers) Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me. Wow!!! 

Romans 8:31-35, 37, 38. What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all— how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died— more than that, who was raised to life— is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? ... No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. 

God wants us to get revelation of our position in Christ before we ‘Go’ anywhere or ‘Do’ anything. 

This is the empowering message of Grace. It is not about striving. It is about receiving. As we come under the spirit of wisdom and revelation, and ‘get’ that we have ‘already got’, we can experience unbroken fellowship and intimacy with God and the manifestation of Gods presence in our lives that will draw us deeper and deeper into the infinitude of Gods Love, Grace and Power. Heb 11: 19-25 Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching. 

(these are notes I found from City Church International's website, from a foundational Grace message,"Our position in Christ", Adam Howell)

Important Message!

God said that before He saved us we were powerless, ungodly, sinners and enemies of God. Ouch!!! Rom 5:6-10 You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God's wrath through him! For if, when we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life!

Now we are a new creation, born again, the old has gone and the new has come.

2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!

we are chosen by God, holy and dearly loved. Colossians 3:12 Therefore, as God's chosen people, holy and dearly loved

Our position in Christ is as firm as Gods word says it is Hebrews11:14 Perfect forever. 

It gets better too. He loves us with the SAME love He loves His beloved Son Jesus with. John 17:21-23 (Jesus prayer for all believers) Father, just as you are in me and I am in you. May they also be in us so that the world may believe that you have sent me. I have given them the glory that you gave me, that they may be one as we are one: I in them and you in me. May they be brought to complete unity to let the world know that you sent me and have loved them even as you have loved me. Wow!!! 

Romans 8:31-35, 37, 38. What, then, shall we say in response to this? If God is for us, who can be against us? He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all— how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. Who is he that condemns? Christ Jesus, who died— more than that, who was raised to life— is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword? ... No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. 

God wants us to get revelation of our position in Christ before we ‘Go’ anywhere or ‘Do’ anything. 

This is the empowering message of Grace. It is not about striving. It is about receiving. As we come under the spirit of wisdom and revelation, and ‘get’ that we have ‘already got’, we can experience unbroken fellowship and intimacy with God and the manifestation of Gods presence in our lives that will draw us deeper and deeper into the infinitude of Gods Love, Grace and Power. Heb 11: 19-25 Therefore, brothers, since we have confidence to enter the Most Holy Place by the blood of Jesus, by a new and living way opened for us through the curtain, that is, his body, and since we have a great priest over the house of God, let us draw near to God with a sincere heart in full assurance of faith, having our hearts sprinkled to cleanse us from a guilty conscience and having our bodies washed with pure water. Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful. And let us consider how we may spur one another on toward love and good deeds. Let us not give up meeting together, as some are in the habit of doing, but let us encourage one another—and all the more as you see the Day approaching. 

(these are notes I found from City Church International's website, from a foundational Grace message,"Our position in Christ", Adam Howell)

True Colors.....

True Colors, Cyndi Lauper
-I have always loved this song. I have always felt a certain childlike happiness when I hear it, if that makes any sense. And since I have come to understand my position in Christ and who God says I am I have felt free to be who He made me to be, (that's why I named my blog A Joy to be Me, also my middle name is JOY) and this song has become a song I think of often. I think it inspires and shows compassion to those who are sad(or weary, feeling lost or longing for more than just the old bump and grind) Now my kids hear this song on PBS and they love it! I guess more and more I am realizing I want to be known for who I am, not what I do. God made me unique and I want to find out who I am, for so many years I tried to be someone I wasn't...now I know that is no way to live! We all have "true" colors inside, things that are special to each one of us...don't ever let anyone make you feel like who you are isn't valuable!!! God knows what he is doing, he knit us each together just the way he wanted us to be!!!

True Colors.....

True Colors, Cyndi Lauper
-I have always loved this song. I have always felt a certain childlike happiness when I hear it, if that makes any sense. And since I have come to understand my position in Christ and who God says I am I have felt free to be who He made me to be, (that's why I named my blog A Joy to be Me, also my middle name is JOY) and this song has become a song I think of often. I think it inspires and shows compassion to those who are sad(or weary, feeling lost or longing for more than just the old bump and grind) Now my kids hear this song on PBS and they love it! I guess more and more I am realizing I want to be known for who I am, not what I do. God made me unique and I want to find out who I am, for so many years I tried to be someone I wasn't...now I know that is no way to live! We all have "true" colors inside, things that are special to each one of us...don't ever let anyone make you feel like who you are isn't valuable!!! God knows what he is doing, he knit us each together just the way he wanted us to be!!!

Love like no other.....

I confess, I don't know how to love. Love is complicated, messy even. There is no cookie cutter mold you can put yourself in called Love. Often times, I just wish there was a manual I could read and then just go and do it and it would work..
For years, I allowed myself to not "see" people, but see issues or problems to solve, like I could somehow just analyze what I saw and come up with a way to fix it, or them. Or just dish out my 2 cents.  I liked to categorize people and put them into their little boxes. That's what happens when your focus is on how to live "right" instead of how to love people for who they are. I just wanted to know what I had to do in order to be a good "Christian". Just like a good old Pharisee!  
Last year I read the book "Love Walked Among Us", and for the first time I really fell in love with Jesus. It helped me get to know Jesus better and to see how he always loved people first. Jesus wasn't walking around correcting people or giving them advice on how to live. He was so compassionate towards people, ALL people.  I can't imagine what it would be like to encounter Jesus.....but, the cool thing is He lives in me and wants to express His life through me.....not me "trying" to be like Jesus....Him being Him, flowing through me, expressing His Life and Love to others. That to me  is amazing! Refreshing! Freeing! 



Love like no other.....

I confess, I don't know how to love. Love is complicated, messy even. There is no cookie cutter mold you can put yourself in called Love. Often times, I just wish there was a manual I could read and then just go and do it and it would work..
For years, I allowed myself to not "see" people, but see issues or problems to solve, like I could somehow just analyze what I saw and come up with a way to fix it, or them. Or just dish out my 2 cents.  I liked to categorize people and put them into their little boxes. That's what happens when your focus is on how to live "right" instead of how to love people for who they are. I just wanted to know what I had to do in order to be a good "Christian". Just like a good old Pharisee!  
Last year I read the book "Love Walked Among Us", and for the first time I really fell in love with Jesus. It helped me get to know Jesus better and to see how he always loved people first. Jesus wasn't walking around correcting people or giving them advice on how to live. He was so compassionate towards people, ALL people.  I can't imagine what it would be like to encounter Jesus.....but, the cool thing is He lives in me and wants to express His life through me.....not me "trying" to be like Jesus....Him being Him, flowing through me, expressing His Life and Love to others. That to me  is amazing! Refreshing! Freeing! 



Tuesday, January 15, 2008

Restoring the years!!!

Lately, I keep remembering the verse in Joel 2, about God restoring the years the locusts have eaten...
After going through many years of difficulty in our marriage, and our spiritual life, this past year everything had come to a head and we went through alot of heavy circumstances, moving from one state to another before our house sold, no job, baby due, no place to live,  living with my mother-in-law(talk about stress!!) , picking up and leaving my husband twice, counseling to no avail, deciding to leave our church, (which has been difficult and very grieving, kind of like a divorce)......hmm the only things missing were fire and death.(God IS merciful!) Anyway, I say all of this not to seek pity, but just to say God has begun to restore the years the locusts have eaten in many ways. So I decided to look up this passage and dig into it a little bit. 
In Joel 1:4, it explains what the locusts do..
4What the gnawing locust has left, the swarming locust has eaten;
         And what the swarming locust has left, the creeping locust has eaten;
         And what the creeping locust has left, the stripping locust has eaten. 

(So it seems as though there are more than one kind of locust, I think I have heard it that these are the different stages a locust goes through.) Anyway, the locusts don't stop until they devour all. Boy that is sure how it felt for us, like everything in our life was going wrong!!
I love this portion of Scripture in Joel 2:18-27, check it out! It's about God promising deliverance for His people!! It is very encouraging! 
So, I am taking this Scripture to heart, that God will restore the years! So far He has given us peace and joy! He is restoring our relationship with each other, we are becoming best friends, communication is finally clicking. We trust each other and accept each other(at least we are trying and it is a process!) We are overall happier, relationally speaking, it's quite refreshing from where things were. All these things are gifts to us from the Lord, we didn't DO one single thing to get to this place! I guess we just started to believe and have faith in what God's word says. We think differently, we are focused on Him instead of ourselves...all because of understanding the wonders and mysteries of His Gospel of Grace and His gift of Righteousness and our union with Christ!!! 
One thing I keep repeating is "God delights in me" and "HE delights in pouring His blessings on His precious children!"  Isn't God SO Awesome!! 

Restoring the years!!!

Lately, I keep remembering the verse in Joel 2, about God restoring the years the locusts have eaten...
After going through many years of difficulty in our marriage, and our spiritual life, this past year everything had come to a head and we went through alot of heavy circumstances, moving from one state to another before our house sold, no job, baby due, no place to live,  living with my mother-in-law(talk about stress!!) , picking up and leaving my husband twice, counseling to no avail, deciding to leave our church, (which has been difficult and very grieving, kind of like a divorce)......hmm the only things missing were fire and death.(God IS merciful!) Anyway, I say all of this not to seek pity, but just to say God has begun to restore the years the locusts have eaten in many ways. So I decided to look up this passage and dig into it a little bit. 
In Joel 1:4, it explains what the locusts do..
4What the gnawing locust has left, the swarming locust has eaten;
         And what the swarming locust has left, the creeping locust has eaten;
         And what the creeping locust has left, the stripping locust has eaten. 

(So it seems as though there are more than one kind of locust, I think I have heard it that these are the different stages a locust goes through.) Anyway, the locusts don't stop until they devour all. Boy that is sure how it felt for us, like everything in our life was going wrong!!
I love this portion of Scripture in Joel 2:18-27, check it out! It's about God promising deliverance for His people!! It is very encouraging! 
So, I am taking this Scripture to heart, that God will restore the years! So far He has given us peace and joy! He is restoring our relationship with each other, we are becoming best friends, communication is finally clicking. We trust each other and accept each other(at least we are trying and it is a process!) We are overall happier, relationally speaking, it's quite refreshing from where things were. All these things are gifts to us from the Lord, we didn't DO one single thing to get to this place! I guess we just started to believe and have faith in what God's word says. We think differently, we are focused on Him instead of ourselves...all because of understanding the wonders and mysteries of His Gospel of Grace and His gift of Righteousness and our union with Christ!!! 
One thing I keep repeating is "God delights in me" and "HE delights in pouring His blessings on His precious children!"  Isn't God SO Awesome!! 

Monday, January 14, 2008

.....It's all Good!!!

I have come to a new understanding and appreciation for the verses "God causes all things to work together for the good of those who love him, according to his good purpose." Romans 8:28 
There have been times when I questioned "why is God allowing me this great pain I am going through, I don't understand, or at times in the past when I had misconceptions about God, I was tempted to think he was punishing me, but that just wasn't true. At times he may discipline me, because he loves me, but I am learning His discipline is so kind..really, I mean that, because I know He loves me, not always easy though....but what about the times when my life seemed like pure hell.....I know God can't be authoring these moments, days, weeks, months, years even....and why would he allow me to live in it soo long....anyway, I have come to take great comfort in the simple fact that though God may not be causing my painful circumstances, he allows them and turns them into His good.....really He does, I get this now and love it! 
Like the story of Joseph, boy did he go through it! But I love in the end when he faced his brothers in Egypt and said to them "What you intended for harm, the Lord intended for good!" 
I love that, his faith and confidence in God, despite the years of agony he went through, God restored the years, gave him power, wealth and influence, isn't that amazing!! 
I have had some rocky times, haven't we all?!  But you know what is so cool, God is going to use those times for a very good purpose one day and it will bless us as well as others and bring glory to God!!! Because He is the author and finisher and perfector of our Faith, He will do it!! 

.....It's all Good!!!

I have come to a new understanding and appreciation for the verses "God causes all things to work together for the good of those who love him, according to his good purpose." Romans 8:28 
There have been times when I questioned "why is God allowing me this great pain I am going through, I don't understand, or at times in the past when I had misconceptions about God, I was tempted to think he was punishing me, but that just wasn't true. At times he may discipline me, because he loves me, but I am learning His discipline is so kind..really, I mean that, because I know He loves me, not always easy though....but what about the times when my life seemed like pure hell.....I know God can't be authoring these moments, days, weeks, months, years even....and why would he allow me to live in it soo long....anyway, I have come to take great comfort in the simple fact that though God may not be causing my painful circumstances, he allows them and turns them into His good.....really He does, I get this now and love it! 
Like the story of Joseph, boy did he go through it! But I love in the end when he faced his brothers in Egypt and said to them "What you intended for harm, the Lord intended for good!" 
I love that, his faith and confidence in God, despite the years of agony he went through, God restored the years, gave him power, wealth and influence, isn't that amazing!! 
I have had some rocky times, haven't we all?!  But you know what is so cool, God is going to use those times for a very good purpose one day and it will bless us as well as others and bring glory to God!!! Because He is the author and finisher and perfector of our Faith, He will do it!!