Once the Spirit touches you tangibly, God's spirit, His presence comes upon you, I don't think you will ever be the same. Having an awesome God, Father and friend, who wants a relationship with you. He doesn't just give his Word, He gives the living Word.
In the garden of Gethsemane, pressure started to come upon Jesus on his physical being. He began to feel an increase of pressure because He was starting to be pressed out of the Father's Presence. Remember Jesus always walked with the Father, as a man, He only did what He saw the Father doing. So he spent his whole life as a man in communion and fellowship with the Father, in His very Presence. When the Father turned his face away from Jesus on the cross, it was more painful for Jesus than all the beatings and lashings, that is why He cried out, "My God, my God why have you forsaken me." At this moment he became sin for us, and the Father couldn't partner His Presence with sin, which is why Jesus cried out "My God" instead of my Father. He, in that moment, was not able to be in right communion and full fellowship with God, because He had BECOME sin for us. This is amazing to me!
I just want to live always aware of God, hungry for more of Him and pressing in to be with Him. (and by this I don't mean striving.) The past couple of days however, I have grown weary in my flesh. It has been a very active week and I just pooped out! In my heart of hearts I wanted to be full of joy and hunger, but I honestly just didn't even think or feel like asking God to meet me. It's sad, but true! My faith for God to breakthrough my emotions and weariness was not even there. For some time now I have been experiencing God in a real way daily. So when I hit this exhaustion you can imagine how almost empty I felt. I know I have only begun to understand what it really means to be in such an intimate close relationship with God, but those 2 days I felt lonely. (Now I really know what Rob meant!) So, today I took some time to just be with Him and already I feel so refreshed, I still feel a bit tired physically, but I have a greater sense of peace! Thank God that we can draw near to Him and He will draw near to us. It's funny, I started to write this yesterday and couldn't finish, and today I listened to a Rob Rufus message from last Sunday and he talked all about the Presence of God in our lives, AGAIN!! I have to say, I am grateful he brings it up over and over, he is the man who encouraged me to press in, to live in my rich inheritance and accept this awesome luxury of spending time in His Presence!!!